So for some reason I can't sleep and it's 2:30 in the morning. What the hell? Too many things on my mind: wedding plans, school stuff, why I'm so unmotivated to get back into shape, etc. When things get like this, I know I may as well get up. Of course I'll feel like crap all day tomorrow or rather, later today. No choices though so here I am.
The picture to the left is one of my favorites, even though it's crooked. I know I could fix it, but I like it this way because it's how I was feeling when I took it...just a little off-kilter, with Jeff still at the center. I took it at Alley Springs when we were doing one of our drives. We had a nice time that day as we usually do when we drive but I was feeling off balance because I was still going through my "is this okay" phase with Jeff. It seems as if I spent much of our first year or two together asking myself questions about him. Maybe I needed to do that, but things got much better between us when I finally decided to just love him.
I like this picture too...the many faceted relationship of Janiece and Jeff. He's isolated by a frame, seemingly alone. I'm not whole, just fragments of me show up. We are united by the picture, though. Huh...probably making way too much out of a picture, the result of being up at this strange hour. Very disorienting...
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